I wish, I wish....

I wish I could rest in your lap with my eyes closed,

A place where I could spend rest of my life without asking anything else,

I wish, if had the choice to choose,

To be close enough,

So close that I could feel your breadth,

Even could sense your heart beat,

Could hear your thoughts,

Could see the shyness in your eyes,

And your lips locked to mine feeling the warmth inside.

I wish it rains today in the night,

For I want to hide my tears from everybody’s sight,

I want to feel wet to the core, to the very inside,

To let you know I can still smile,

Though I know I can’t win this battle,

I won’t give up unless until you are mine or until I die.

I wish I could be the one,

To make you feel the things you couldn’t see,

To protect you from every evil,

To take you to the places you dream about,

To be the one, whom you dream about,

To tell you about the way I feel,

I wish you to be mine,

I wish to marry you sunshine.

Please let me have some moments in peace

It’s hard to find what went wrong,

Oh God! Help me please these feelings are too strong,

Strong enough to kill me my lord,

Please don’t let them win, you know there’s a lot left to be done,

My life is on your command almighty,

Don’t let me die like this, you know there is a lot that depends on me,

I know you could hear me, I wish you could see into me.

There was the time when i love to dream,

Now i fear if even i could ever even fall asleep,

Even when i am awake, i could feel me sinking,

I pleads for help to you my lord, just let me be at peace,

Just let me at peace.

I am holding it for so long but now it might explode,

I can’t let it happen and you know i won’t,

I am on your duty invincible, please help me,

I want to smile again though I know in the end I won’t exist,

I am doing my part and I will continue with it,

Now the turn is yours I want her for me.

You have the power deity I know you could do it,

I know I am going selfish here but I can’t help it,

She is the only one that could help me,

I wish her to see into me, read my eyes or just understand a bit.

Or just kiss me once so that I could die in peace.

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Uski batein...ye tanha raatein...

Mushkil main hain mann, asmanjas main hai ankhen,

Fir yaad ayi uski jhuki palken, vo dabi si batein,

Neend ne aaj fir mujhse daman chhoda liya,

Chalte chalet fir main natmastak vahin par baith gya,

Ankhon se fir ansoo chhalke,

Hazar koshish ki par fir bhi na ruke,

Ansuon ke bojh se palken uthati nahin,

Use pane ki tamanna dil se jati kyun nahin,

Rahein alag hai hamari dil kyun samjhta nahin,

Tadpta kyun hai chain se sota kyun nahin,

Kyun yaad ati hai uski har lafz uski har harkat,

Rab se har baar ki vo ibadat, uski har aahat,

Uska halke se muskurana, thoda sharmana,

Kabhi ajeeb si nigahon se dekhna,

kabhi anjani baat par naraj ho jana, Pal pal ka tadpana,

khaboon main use dher sahri baatein karna,

fir uski ek nazar ke liye tadapna,

Use pane ki khahish, aur uske samne ate hi ghabra jana,

Use yaad karna fir na jane kyun khud hi khud mushkurana,

vo dhalti sham ke aaghosh main bheegi ankhon se sona,

Uski ankhon main apna chehra talashna,

Uske barein main sochte rehna,

Uski har harkat ko ek paheli kit rah suljhana,

Fir usi peheli main gum ho jana,

Use samjhne ki koshish karna,

Use manane ki koshish karna, Use pane ki koshsih karna,

Vo mandir aur dargah jana, rab se use mangna,

Kabhi uljhnao ko aur uljhana,

Kabhi usko manana, kabhi khud b khud naraj ho jana,

Yaad tumhe bhi ayengi ye meri batein,

Tab dil royega aur roygi teri bhi ankhen.

,

Can't sleep i have a lot to do n a long way to go.........

In between the greenery of forest,

In the midst,

Swallowing things of past,

That I think i must,

To continue my journey in between this all,

As i must remember my journey is not small,

Though i am rising with time,

But sometimes to rise you have to fall,

The tough task ahead is waiting me,

And i must continue to prove to no one else but to myself that i am worth it.

She Again.....

Once again memories are awaken,

Once again i am in pain,

The road seems softer then blossoms,

Though, i have to run on a knife edge.

Scent of love is again i have smelled today,

I think, i might dream someone,

Vicious circle has grown tougher and wider again,

Though, i thought it was broken.

Her thoughts are making me nervous again,

Her memories want me to cry,

My heart wants to be in pain again,

Though, he knows he might die.

My lips are shaking in delicate smile,

My hands want to write.

My eyes are wet again.

And those Passionate feelings is holding my body again,

My soul says she is the last desire of mine.

I had tries to move away,

Tired my best to be even farther than the sky,

Kill her thoughts every moment,

To make dead her every sight,

But how could you win like this,

When you are indulge every single moment in this lovable fight.

Nor i am a hero,

Nor of those known lover,

I am just a simple boy,

Who believes she is mine,

And without her i cannot survive.