"Vikash!"
I was on my way to hostel, when I heard a female voice calling me by my name. I was scared the moment I heard her. No, not because I am not good at talking with girls, but I know whose voice was that. How could I not, she is the one I have always dreamed for, the one to whom I always thought of talking too, the only one I wish to be in my life, the only one who comes in my dream every night. The only fairy in my life. And why she was there, because she might have read the poem I had written for her last night. She might have liked it. May be she want to talk to me.
We were standing in front of the library.
I turned to face the challenge ahead. Yeah challenge, it's been the real challenge tonight how I will handle the situation. It's been the first time in almost two years when she herself has came to talk to me and it could be the last. Something was going to happen soon.
"Yaar, I am tired of all these things. Please stop writing me." She said with a little smile on her face. Her words doesn't seem to match her expression. Not even close.
She stared at me for sometime hoping that I would say something. When i didn't answer she said,
"I don't want to be in these things. I am here to study. You too must concentrate on your subjects. Ok!"
Stupid say something. She is talking to you.
What? Oh, what should I say?
Anything! Just says something.
What?
What, what? Are you dumb? Just say something, she won't be there talking to you all night.
My mind, why can't it shut up? I want to concentrate here. I don't want to understand what he is saying. The gorgeous looking so beautiful, did I ever imagine her, talking to me like this, that too in real. God, I will go mad.
I wish I could somehow capture this moment or could hold it; I would have never let it escape. I would have captured it forever. And I wish I could capture her image forever in my eyes. I want to have her forever in my life. Oh God! Is it really happening! Is she really there talking to me? I can't believe she is in-front of me. I hope this not like the every other time when she talks to me, in my dreams.
What are you thinking? Do it now.
"Sorry!"
Sorry, what does that mean Idiot?
What does that mean! You said say something. So, I did.
"Sorry, what does that mean?"
See!
"Just stop writing to me...... Ok!!!" Her voice suddenly angry, like she didn't expected the way I responded to her or said sorry????
"Sorry." I said again, unable to think what to do or to say.
Crap!
You are an idiot.
Yeah, right. I am really an idiot.
She walked away saying those last words.
What should I do now?
Go, Idiot. Ask her for something else.
Something, what something?
Anything! Ask her if you could be her friend. Just talk to her.
Go now!
I ran only to catch her in the middle of the way to her Bhavan, in-front of SBI. I said, more precisely pleaded.
"Hey, excuse me, please stop"
She stopped.
"Please stop." I said again.
"Hm Hm ......"
"Bolo." She said softly.
"Can't we be friends?"
Her lips moved.
Isn't she amazing? I won't lose you. I won't let you make me lose you. I don't want to lose you. I can't lose you. It will be better if I die if I can't make you mine.
"No!" She said.
"Why?" I asked her though knowing what her answer would be.
"Do we know each other?" She said diplomatically.
"No!"
"Did we ever had a conversation before?"
"No!"
"So, How come we can be friends?"
"I can't be friend with anyone."
Crap! Now, I am anyone. Yaar, I love you. I love you like nothing else in my life. You are my life now. Look in my eyes, why do you think I am waiting for you only. Can't you understand it!
"Why?" I asked again.
"What why? It's my life. I can do whatever I want to."
"Yeah, sure it's your!"
Then she turned to move away and I turned heading towards my hostel. When I reached there, I realized.
She came there to know me. She gave me a chance and what did I do? I threw it away. God save me. I must talk to her in the morning.
Continued......
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