A Special Journey! (PART-I)

(Scene 1)
“Who will help me now!!! :P”

“Hey! Where r you going man?..... Can’t you see the queue?.....”
An old man complained and stopped a person who is trying to get a ticket to Bangalore and who was sort of trying to make his own special queue. :P
“You mind your own business old man……” And suddenly everyone interjected in b/w yelling n asking him to get in line.
I was standing in a queue, waiting for my turn to get the ticket and watching the whole scene and enjoying a bit of it as I too wanted to stop him but couldn’t find enough strength to ask him not to.
Well this was the other thing though, I m not writing to tell you about him. I picked this man just because I need a way to start my story.
So here I was, tired and thinking about her as ever. Finally, I was on the ticket window and I asked the concerned person to give me a ticked to Bangalore. Then I walked slowly towards platform no. 8 where I was told that the train would arrive.
I was on the stairs, when I saw two cute girls trying to carry a bag too heavy for them to even lift. They seems in real need of help and they were beautiful, so I thought of offering some help to them.
“Hey, need some help!”
“Oh, no…no we will do it!”
They both looked at me, as if saying ‘please don’t take it seriously….we were just joking’!
“Oh!…………..Really!”
And I smiled, don’t know why, but you can consider it one of my many acts of stupidity which i do whenever there is a sweet girl infront of me which obviously would have embarrassed them both.
Well again I was parting of from the actual thing, which I would (with my best shot) try not to, you can count on me…………though I know I will surely let you down.
Well they then finally (as obvious) left the suitcase for me to lift and the moment I tried to life it my hands stretched as if they were made of rubber and grew longer and longer. The thing was that the suitcase was really so heavy I could barely think of giving it a one more try by myself alone. But then, it was the question of my prestige, so I decided to give it one more shot and thought to give it all I have eaten that day, but all in vain. It barely lifted half or an inch. I wondered what could be inside it.
The two girls chuckled as if enjoying the moment. Now I understand how fast the situation can switch. :P
Well Finally I decided not to give it any more tries, :( well atleast not alone and it would be better to lose some dignity then to lose my life in lifting that big junk. So I asked the cuter of the two, (with a fake smile on my face which disappears with the completion of my sentence.)
“Hey I think the bag is really heavy. I really need your help too to disturb it a bit more than I have managed till now.”
She gave a wide smile as if saying, I told you not to mess ‘haha’.
“Yeah! …..sure!”
And finally the three of us managed to take it up 'the stairs' with me the most embarrassed person there in b/w. Well i thought, it was over finally, or is it? I saw that the station is still 100m distance away from where we were standing, in a hurriedly look I tried to search for something at the lower part of the bag. To my happiness the bag was having wheels. Well, I accompanied them to station as there was no 'danger' left then. Well we had a little intro then and they asked me my mobile no.(for my extreme pleasure it was opposite to what happens generally now a days...:)) and then they boarded on the train after wishing goodbyes.



(Scene 2)
“You ARE Beautiful”

Well, there I was again as ever thinking of her as ever. Ufff again a boring start. Well, I just can’t skip her. OK! Then, I decided to buy some snacks. No, no I wasn’t hungry or anything, just had this habit to have something to eat and still I am as thin as a thin dinosaurs(:P).
Well, as i told you, this wasn’t a start I would have opted for but still I am getting more into this lazy thing day by day.
Well, I was on the snacks point on the platform and I spotted a beautiful girl, prettier than the previous two and I decided to stare at her until the train arrives(my usual time pass). I took my snacks and went to a place closer to her and still partially hidden. I, then, sat there and started eating chips, and in the mid looking at her every now and then. No matter what you do but whenever you want something not to happen it happens almost immediately and the matter of fact, it is a 'fact'. Well, she finally saw me staring at her, and started continuously inquiring to confirm it by looking back in my direction or maybe she likes this game of staring and not letting others know that we know what they know. I know, I know it's a bit confusing but that's what is happening in there with us or more precisely with me.
While all these things were going on suddenly a very basic question erupted in my mind. That would I ever see her again? or would she ever know what I was thinking about her? or would she even care about it? I mean she knew only this thing that I was staring at her and that’s it, nothing else. Then a crazy thing happened to me, an idea, a thing that asked me to tell her what I felt and……….just do it. May be i was going crazy but that's what girls want don't they. :P
Well at first it looked all absurd to me, an act of foolishness, but then I found something that..........that shouldn’t be there. I was thinking of the odds in favor . Well I just can’t explain it how, but I certainly was planning to really tell her something about what I felt. So I tried to motivate myself for this because I couldn’t forlook any harm in this…………………‘to tell a girl what you think about her’ ……hmm ….hmm……quite fascinating. (Don’t do it if you think the girl is ugly. I bet you will take your next breathe in the hospital. :P)
Well I finally managed to boost my self-confidence by telling myself again and again that she is not your girlfriend you can tell her. And she won’t ask you to come up with something better next time, making it difficult for you, to even think of it again to give any complements to her.( I am going to be sacked for sure for exposing the truth. :P)
Well, I finally boosted 3/4th of the confidence in my legs to make them take me to her and 1/4th in my voice. When I reached directly in front of her, I tried to smile….why ( well ‘fatti hui thi yaar’).But I managed to control my emotions and said,
“Hey! You are beautiful!”
“Well,.....hmm...... do I know you?”(tilting her eyes)
“Hmmm….so you are saying that if you don’t know me, you are ug…..”
“No! I know I am sweet!” She defended herself and giggles.
“Oh, I am Vikash Singh…..aaaaa is it enough to make us know each other.”
She smiled and I thought it would be 'a yes', apparently, it would remain a mystery to me for now, and could remain that way for whole of my life, if I won’t take tuition from someone master in this girl psychology.
“No” she offered.
“Ohh…then can I take you to coffee”
“Well, here …:P…and for the time being I am waiting for my train to arrive and would prefer to do so.”
“Hmmm… ”
I went then without saying anything.
I went to a nearby coffee cafe and asked for two coffees. I came back and offered one to her.
“Hufff….so you won’t give up.”
“I brought you a coffee. Wanna bet something!(?)”
“I will complain about you to all those people there.”
“Well you could do that if you don’t like me; and I feel I am not that bad.”
I whispered the last line to her.
“Hmmm …..Ok I will take the coffee.”
“Hufff!”
“What?”
“Nothing I would have loved if you had said it in words.”
“What?”
“I like you.”
She giggled, “I didn’t mean that.”
“Well that’s why I am complaining.”
“Hmmm… you are nice. But don’t take it otherwise.”
“Thank you miss ‘unnamed’, and I would try not to, though I desperately want to.”
“Tanya…Tanya Agrawal!”
“Thank you miss Tannu!”
She giggled again.
'The train no. 2675 is soon going to arrive on platform no. 8. ‘Tink tonk’' (Announcement)
Her train was to arrive then.
So I said, "So.....will miss you beautiful.”
“Stop saying that!” She complained.
“Ok!”I smiled.
Before boarding on the train we wished good luck to each other.
I stayed there for some moments, and turned back to move away when the train sirened to depart. Out of the blue someone called me.
“Hey!”
I turned back. She had a note in her hand. She asked me to hurry towards the window and said,
“This is my number.”
and smiled, “ Call me when you buy time!”
“Sure! I will!”
The train took speed and I said to her again “Byye beautiful!”
She smiled
“Bye!”

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I wish you to be my life.

I wish to be the music you hear,

To be the lyrics of your song my dear,

To be yours I swear.

To be the words that could make you feel,

To be the heart that you could steal,

I want to be your smile Miss,

I wish to be your first kiss.

 

I wish you could read my eyes,

For the reason I can't explain everything in words,

Sometimes you have to be understanding to know the feelings of others,

To feel what is love,

You have to be in love.

 

I wish I could be the darkness of night,

For I want to see you dreaming,

To keep staring the whole night,

Just be there for my whole life,

I Hope the sun will never rise.

 

I wish to be your smile,

To let you know that every time you are sad I would die,

That you can save someone if you could just try,

To be the love of your life,

To be the one to whom you can't deny.

 

I wish to be your wish,

To be the one, with whom you will bliss,

I hope to be the person, whom you can't dismay,

I hope if I could stay,

I hope to be your wish someday.

 

I wish I could be a star,

For every time you make a wish and close your eyes,

I could make it true with my life,

To see you whole night,

I wish to be the light in the night.

 

I wish I could be the wind,

To be the one for whom you breathe every time,

To keep you closer then the heart of mine,

To be the one with whom you could ever shine.

 

I hope I could be the time,

For the reason I would stretch me to eternity to see you more,

For I could go back every time I wanted to be there,

To try every last time, until I'll make you mine,

I wish, I wish, I wish you to see the tears behind my smile,

And I wish you to feel the way I feel.

I said, I will never fall and then I jumped off the cliff!

"Vikash!"

I was on my way to hostel, when I heard a female voice calling me by my name. I was scared the moment I heard her. No, not because I am not good at talking with girls, but I know whose voice was that. How could I not, she is the one I have always dreamed for, the one to whom I always thought of talking too, the only one I wish to be in my life, the only one who comes in my dream every night. The only fairy in my life. And why she was there, because she might have read the poem I had written for her last night. She might have liked it. May be she want to talk to me.

We were standing in front of the library.

I turned to face the challenge ahead. Yeah challenge, it's been the real challenge tonight how I will handle the situation. It's been the first time in almost two years when she herself has came to talk to me and it could be the last. Something was going to happen soon.

"Yaar, I am tired of all these things. Please stop writing me." She said with a little smile on her face. Her words doesn't seem to match her expression. Not even close.

She stared at me for sometime hoping that I would say something. When i didn't answer she said,

"I don't want to be in these things. I am here to study. You too must concentrate on your subjects. Ok!"

Stupid say something. She is talking to you.

What? Oh, what should I say?

Anything! Just says something.

What?

What, what? Are you dumb? Just say something, she won't be there talking to you all night.

My mind, why can't it shut up? I want to concentrate here. I don't want to understand what he is saying. The gorgeous looking so beautiful, did I ever imagine her, talking to me like this, that too in real. God, I will go mad.

I wish I could somehow capture this moment or could hold it; I would have never let it escape. I would have captured it forever. And I wish I could capture her image forever in my eyes. I want to have her forever in my life. Oh God! Is it really happening! Is she really there talking to me? I can't believe she is in-front of me. I hope this not like the every other time when she talks to me, in my dreams.

What are you thinking? Do it now.

"Sorry!"

Sorry, what does that mean Idiot?

What does that mean! You said say something. So, I did.

"Sorry, what does that mean?"

See!

"Just stop writing to me...... Ok!!!" Her voice suddenly angry, like she didn't expected the way I responded to her or said sorry????

"Sorry." I said again, unable to think what to do or to say.

Crap!

You are an idiot.

Yeah, right. I am really an idiot.

She walked away saying those last words.

What should I do now?

Go, Idiot. Ask her for something else.

Something, what something?

Anything! Ask her if you could be her friend. Just talk to her.

Go now!

I ran only to catch her in the middle of the way to her Bhavan, in-front of SBI. I said, more precisely pleaded.

"Hey, excuse me, please stop"

She stopped.

"Please stop." I said again.

"Hm Hm ......"

"Bolo." She said softly.

"Can't we be friends?"

Her lips moved.

Isn't she amazing? I won't lose you. I won't let you make me lose you. I don't want to lose you. I can't lose you. It will be better if I die if I can't make you mine.

"No!" She said.

"Why?" I asked her though knowing what her answer would be.

"Do we know each other?" She said diplomatically.

"No!"

"Did we ever had a conversation before?"

"No!"

"So, How come we can be friends?"

"I can't be friend with anyone."

Crap! Now, I am anyone. Yaar, I love you. I love you like nothing else in my life. You are my life now. Look in my eyes, why do you think I am waiting for you only. Can't you understand it!

"Why?" I asked again.

"What why? It's my life. I can do whatever I want to."

"Yeah, sure it's your!"

Then she turned to move away and I turned heading towards my hostel. When I reached there, I realized.

She came there to know me. She gave me a chance and what did I do? I threw it away. God save me. I must talk to her in the morning.

Continued......

I tried to end it but it helped me to survive

I tried to stop thinking of you,

To stop this pain,

I thought this would be life,

I was dying the instant I tried.

I tried to lie, that I can forget you,

It went worse; you are now all over my mind.

Then I screamed, that I am ok without you,

It came out wrong; I said I am still waiting for you sunshine.

I tried to fill your heart with my love,

Though it was empty, still everything was spilling over.

So I asked god to help me, I asked him to make you mine,

He smiled and said I can't help you with this, it's her life and it's for her to decide.

I was looking in a mirror,

I saw you there, you were smiling, and you look beautiful as ever.

I tried to come over it, I tried to cry,

Your memories showed up, piercing my heart still making me smile.

Once I even tried to hate you,

But it ended even before it could survive,

Instantly, I close my eyes to see you one more time,

Now, I never ever wanna open them; I wanna be with you every single second, every time.

I tried to end it,

I tried to die.

I end up with living with your dreams,

You became my life.

Now, Though I am tired and I want it to over,

And my mind says it can't take it anymore.

Still I love you like never before,

My heart says, I want to love you even more.

He says, he knows she will understand it sometime,

It's just, she can't do it now, she need some time,

She will ultimately be mine.

Living in dreams-IV The other me

She is there in every tick of my life, every bit of a second, every air I breathe and every bit of me. I sense her in the music I hear, I see her when I close my eyes and sometimes when they are open and still I wait so eagerly for the dawn to happen every day, for the night to come and engulf me so that I could dream her once again, to hear the melody in her voice again.

I was standing in the shadow somewhere I don’t remember. It’s hard to think of anything else when she is in-front of me. Everything just melts down in the background.

“Oh boy!” I said mesmerized watching her again, like every other time I see her.

“God, she is amazing!” A voice said instantly and I turned in a hurry to see who is standing behind me and looking at her.

He was exactly like me. My forehead twisted in surprise as if they were telling him that they don’t like his presence here.

“Oh, calm down calm down......I am just the other you.”

“Other you.....what does that mean?”

“Other you mean........other you....” He said while looking at me and paused to know if I understood or not. When i didn't answer he said.

"...I mean I am part of you and.......”

He continued.

“I was just eager to know about the girl you see and talk in your head all the time.”

“And so i thought i should come with you here. That’s it!"

“Oh! .....Ohk!”

“So why are you standing here. I mean, she is waiting.”

“Hmmm...... It’s kind of weird. I don't know if you will understand."

"Oh, Atleast try it!"

"Hmmm...... She laugh at me when I looks at her for so long sometimes without even acknowledging it. So I thought I should stay here for some time and see her.”

“She is so beautiful and.....”

"Yeah she is!"

"Hey! Don't do it. I don't like anyone else looking at her. Not even you."

"Ohk Ohk, I am sorry!" He said raising his hand defensively and continued.

"I won't! So you were saying something."

"Yeah!"

And I fell in thoughts again . Words just can’t put the way I feel it here, inside, still my lips sometimes do find something to make it even for the moment, to make that instant survivable.

“....I wish if my eyes could speak for themselves, what they feel when they see her or if she could read my eyes by herself......”

“Wow!”

He smiled at me.

“It’s real pain.” I said and continued.

“.....still beautiful and worth to endure and you could have felt it in my thoughts by now.”

He smiled while shaking his head again.

“So ........ What are you going to do?”

“I don’t have any idea. I mean, I am not sure of anything else except......... I will love her forever.” I said not knowing what else to say.

“How do you know you will?”

“How do you know when you are in love or who loves you? You just know that she is the one and you don’t know why you believe it”

“You just somehow feel it, and......... And you know that you love her and you can’t skip thinking her for something, anything at all.”

“Hey, I better go now.”

"Yeah, right!"

“Ok, Bye!”

"Bye"

I went slowly towards her with smile in my face.

“Hey beautiful! Sorry I am late”

“Where were you? I am waiting for so long.” She asked with hoaxy anger in her voice.

Continued.........

Living in dreams-III A Fairy in the Fog

It was all white and invisible. I barely knew where i was heading too. I was all alone in the middle of nowhere.

"Where am i?"

As soon as i said that, a voice echoed into my ears.

"Hey!"

I looked in the direction of words. I saw a girl standing in front me. She was all white from top to bottom with a mask on her face hiding everything except her eyes that too behind a porous frame. Like the fairy in the fairy tales.

With a pleasant smile and surprise in her eyes, she asked,

"Who are you?"

"Me!!....Hmmm!"

I was surprised to see her. I wasn't expecting anyone else.

"You don't belong here. Do you?" She said in her soft inquiring voice.

"Well.... neither seems you", I replied.

"Of course I do! I live here."

"I am Wish fairy."

"What? ...... You are a.......Wish fairy."

"Why? .....Don't you believe in fairies?"

Her face flashes in front of my eyes; my lips becomes live with crooked smile and i said in a low voice more to myself.

"Yeah, I do."

"So....What are you doing here?"

"I am waiting for my girlfriend."

She laughed.

"What?" I asked her in inquiring expression.

"What is her name?"

"Shalu!"

As soon as i said her name, my body felt the shivering. Her name is the most beautiful word in my life. Those five letters brings smile on my lips. I could live for lives with that one name in my life and if required i could die for her in every life, anytime.

"Do you...ahem.....love her?"

I sensed, she was still smiling swiftly. I moved my eyes closer to her. I was serious.

"You tell me ......you are a fairy .....What do you think?"

She looked in my eyes and then turned her faces away, sighing to see in them again.

"Yeah! ..... you do."

"So, tell me about your girl."

There are two situations when a person seems to be in utter confusion. One is when he doesn't have anything to say and the other when he doesn't have anything else to say. Though, the train had already been lost thousand times by now and here it goes one more time.

I managed to say something finally.

"Her eyes....." I sighed.

"What about them?" She asked with curiosity in her voice. I looked towards her.

" ..... They are the most beautiful thing i have ever seen. When i look into them i feel.....like...like i am immortal.... everything else looks so fake......"

I continued.

"........the gravity they have ....you looses your hold on yourself. It's like they have the power to hypnotize......you feel like if there is a heaven somewhere, then this is it, right here.....in front of you...in them..... And you don't want to let it go..... And even if you want to, you can't......You think you miss it now and you might probably not get any other chance to see her again"

It was almost like she was in front of me. I was visualizing every moment, every bit of it, untill she interjected in between and wake me back.

".....Tell me more about her......"

I looked towards her in curiosity.

"I mean anything else. Like.....how she looks like and all."

"I know two fairies now." I said.

"What? .... Oh! ..... and......"

She sat beside me asking me to say something more about her. I was quite surprised why she is so interested in it. And i was so happy that someone finally wants to listen to me, what i all have in my heart for her. Even i wasn't sure how many earth would get destroyed by the time i will be able to explain everything about her, her beauty, everything, and i wondered if there was any end to it at all.

I continued.

"......She is beautiful like a rainbow. She is the most beautiful creation of god, most astonishing too. Her lips looks like when the sun fades down to sea leaving behind a dull pinkish red tint........"

".......Her hair....... the shadow of her hair even more peaceful than shadow of a tree......more striking than clouds......."

"..........She is my heartbeat...my passion...my craze...my....." I paused and looked towards her to meet her eyes.

".......everything."

"When i see her i feel life......."

"......Then, I feel life to be worthy to live......When i pray, i beg god to make her mine........."

".......She is my angel, my fairy......i am empty without her. If she won't be there i would be pleased to meet death anytime. It won't be life then. If i would be asked to remember anything, she is the one."

"I wish i could Love you!"

"What?"

I was surprised by this uneven reaction.

She came near to me and said, "Don't love me like this."

"What are you talking about?"

She removed her mask and i realized she was her. She was so close to me i could sense her heartbeat. I could see the gold flowing out from dark diamond eyes.

"Don't love me like this!" She said again.

Tears fell from my eyes too.

"I can't help it........."

".......You are everywhere in me and you will remain......always. I love you......"

".......It is the only truth i know now."

I tried to change the subject.

"So........you are a Wish fairy"

"I wish, I could be one!"

She is always a fairy to me. But the way she said those word, pierced my heart to the core. I couldn't suppress my urge to ask her about it.

"Why?"

"Then i could make your wish true." She was looking in my eyes, towards me.

"It doesn't matter. I still love you."

"I know you will say that."

"Yeah, sure, you do."

I smiled.

She said, "Let me take you to a place."

I asked "Where?"

She smiled, "You will see!"

And then we went in dark fog in silence.

Living in dreams-II

Though there is everyone around here, but the days are hard to spend. My eyes are always deep in her thoughts. My mind hardly skips any moment without thinking of her.It isn't like i wouldn't survive if i won't see her, but having a glance of her induces some kind of comfort in me, reduces my pain thousand folds.

It was hardly 5 minutes and i was moving my eyes in every possible direction like if it could have been done, I would have looked in every single way at once. Few seconds more and i heard a soft voice from behind and my heart started pumping like it will come out to see her.

"Hi!"

I turned to meet her dark wide beautiful eyes. It is always hard to believe that you have seen her, that she really is there. She look so beautiful, as usual, with her golden earrings and dark black shade dress.

Like every last time, i went out off words to start with.It's always hard to believe she is standing in front of you.

Finally, i said,

"Where were you?"

She hesitated.

"What happened?" I was confused.

After millions of milliseconds of awkward silence she finally replied,

"I am confused. I wasn't sure if i should see you anymore, after ....."

I pretended to look even but i wasn't qualified in that area. I am pretty bad at lying.

"So you want to leave me.....i won't stop you if you think that will help you ....I thought you care about me....i thought you....anyways.... so why did you came."

"I couldn't stop myself on not showing up. I am confused on what to do! ....."

"You don't have to be. Just be here, in front of me......what else i have to do to make you understand that it's you who is helping me survive ....saving me ...."

"You don't understand. I might be doing exactly opposite of what you are thinking......I think it's because off me you are suffering."

"Exactly, and you are the only one who could end it.......though you don't seems to be interested in it anymore."

"It's not like that....."

"Then how is it like?"

After speaking out the first word on high..... i tried to lower my voice down. I was fighting her to stay with me and i knew i cannot lose it.

"It's unexplainable."

"I can explain.... you came back because you care.... you feared what i would do without you?.... you know i will come every single night till the last second of my life to see if you will return.... you know it. You are all i have ....without you i am no one ....it won't be life anymore if you will leave, though i might live."

She turned back before i could speak anymore.

"What? .....are you leaving?"

"No!....I suppose i can't.... "

"You are crying! ...."

"Hey! Remember, once i said ........i want to be your smile."

"I would rather die before i will see tears in your eyes."

She smiled and it felt like life entered in my body again.

"You okay now?"

"Better!"

"Good!"

She said, "So what's the plan?"

"There isn't any....just stay with me....talk to me....at least till i wake up."

She smiled again and kissed my forehead.

I said, "Hey! I love you....you are my princess, my angel."

She sighed,"I know."

"Okay!"

Living in dreams-I

With a delicate smile on her lips, her expression went lament and she said in a very low voice,

"Why do you look at me like that?"

It took me long to figure out what she was talking about? i was staring at her, for how long i myself wasn't aware off.

Her instant query wakes me up out of my dream and I said,

"What? Oh.....i.......don't.....really....know. It is just i don't......can't control myself on not looking at the most beautiful person in my life. I love to see you......the way you smile......the way you are and you look into me......it's everything....for me"

I was fighting to find the right words out and it happens every time she falls in front of me....i just lose my train of thoughts. Before I could go on for any further on it, she asked another one,

"What if you had not seen me? ......What if we had never met?" My lips soared and struggled again to speak out the right words that could satisfy not only her but me too. When i looked up at her, into her wide beautiful perplexed eyes, they were fixed on my lips and they look so desperate.

I said, "Then i don't think there is any way i would have survived either"

Her eyes filled with liquid gold and i could no longer dare to stare into them.

"Don't do it Vikash, you are killing yourself"

"I am already dead, if i won't"

"Can i do something to help you out?"

"You can help yourself to know if i deserve this from you.......put your hand on your heart and ask ........don't you love me?"

"I.....can't?"

"Why you can't? .....are you afraid you do?"

"I don't really know......i can't do it now"

"You have all your time...... i am waiting for you"

Something buzzed in the background.

"I have to go.....see you in night again"

"k"

"k tc princess...love you....forever.....beyond"

And i kissed her forehead and her eyes.

"bbye sweetheart"

"bbye"

and i opened my eyes to meet the world again.

I wish, I wish....

I wish I could rest in your lap with my eyes closed,

A place where I could spend rest of my life without asking anything else,

I wish, if had the choice to choose,

To be close enough,

So close that I could feel your breadth,

Even could sense your heart beat,

Could hear your thoughts,

Could see the shyness in your eyes,

And your lips locked to mine feeling the warmth inside.

I wish it rains today in the night,

For I want to hide my tears from everybody’s sight,

I want to feel wet to the core, to the very inside,

To let you know I can still smile,

Though I know I can’t win this battle,

I won’t give up unless until you are mine or until I die.

I wish I could be the one,

To make you feel the things you couldn’t see,

To protect you from every evil,

To take you to the places you dream about,

To be the one, whom you dream about,

To tell you about the way I feel,

I wish you to be mine,

I wish to marry you sunshine.

Please let me have some moments in peace

It’s hard to find what went wrong,

Oh God! Help me please these feelings are too strong,

Strong enough to kill me my lord,

Please don’t let them win, you know there’s a lot left to be done,

My life is on your command almighty,

Don’t let me die like this, you know there is a lot that depends on me,

I know you could hear me, I wish you could see into me.

There was the time when i love to dream,

Now i fear if even i could ever even fall asleep,

Even when i am awake, i could feel me sinking,

I pleads for help to you my lord, just let me be at peace,

Just let me at peace.

I am holding it for so long but now it might explode,

I can’t let it happen and you know i won’t,

I am on your duty invincible, please help me,

I want to smile again though I know in the end I won’t exist,

I am doing my part and I will continue with it,

Now the turn is yours I want her for me.

You have the power deity I know you could do it,

I know I am going selfish here but I can’t help it,

She is the only one that could help me,

I wish her to see into me, read my eyes or just understand a bit.

Or just kiss me once so that I could die in peace.

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